One Year in Heaven

To my beautiful daughter, Carly Jewel.
Daddy, Kassia and I miss you so much and we can't believe it has been a whole year since God has taken you home! Home... Heaven... that is your real home. Jesus said He would go and prepare a place for us in His Father's house. You are there with Jesus, where there are no more tears or sorrow. But we have to continue living down here until it is our time to go. I wish we could be together now. There is so much I would like to do over. So much I would like to make up to you. So many I LOVE YOU!'s I'd like to tell you. So many hugs I want to give you...
I look at pictures of you everyday, I read your poems, I look at your art and photography and marvel at how beautifully you were developing and how promising your life was going to be, what great and good things you were going to accomplish when you got older. But you won't grow older. You are forever young. You are now more beautiful and wiser than you ever could have been here on earth. I know this, yet I still wish I could hold you now. Many people miss you besides your family. Please ask God to send His comfort to all of us who are hurting in your absence.
I love you, Darling, more than my words could ever express.
Your Mom.

P.S. this is still my song for you:
Dancing With The Angels (by Monk and Neagle)
Memories surround me
But sadness has found me
I'd do anything for more time
Never before has someone meant more
And I can't get you out of my mind

There is so much that I don't understand
But I know
(Chorus)
You're dancing with the angels
Walking in new life
You're dancing with the angels
Heaven fills your eyes
Now that you're dancing with the angels

You had love for your family
Love for all people
Love for the Father, and Son
Your heart will be heard
In your unspoken words
Through generations to come

There is so much that I don't understand
But I know
(Chorus)
(Bridge)
We're only here for such a short time
So I'm gonna' stand up, shout out,
And sing Hallelujah
One day I'll see you again
(Chorus)

Happy Birthday, Carly

My precious Jewel would have turned sweet 16 yesterday, February 13th. The pain of losing her is suddenly sharper. It's as if time has folded and brought me back to last year. We miss her so much. Words cannot adequately express how much.

I know Carly expected to live a long time and to (in her words), "get a life", but I also know that now she has tasted the sweetness of Heaven and is sitting at Jesus' feet right now (maybe playing the drums for Him) and as much as she loved all of us... she wouldn't want to come back. Not after being there and after Jesus wiped away all her tears and healed all her hurts.

This world is painful and we may walk around wounded and bruised but there is Hope. I have to look toward that. I know I will see Carly again... YAY! but until then... it still hurts.



"And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away." Rev. 21:4



Mary

Update

For all those who check back at this site from time to time, I am finally writing. I am Carly's mom and I have never written here but I think I am ready now. I have read all your comments many times and I cannot express how much they all mean to me and my family. It has been a very hard road to travel these past months since our precious Carly has passed, but we have not traveled them alone, thanks to God, all of our friends, extended family and all of you who wrote to us. Thank you and please don't stop.

For those who didn't know, Carly died from Pneumonia and a bacterial infection after having the flu for several days. After 2 to 3 days, it seemed like the flu was passing but then the infection set in. We took her to the doctor that Monday morning, she received medicine, you'd think that would do it.... she had just turned 15.. no one should die from that these days.. but that night she stopped breathing... she's in God's arms now.

If you want to contact me personally, here is my email:
carlyjewelsmom@hotmail.com

I will write more soon. God Bless.